So, if you are feeling robust. Have a look at this. Keep going if you can - it's worth it in the end.
Just made me think a bit. Ever felt like Bethany? Too far gone? Too hurt? Too exhausted? In too much of a mess?
Corrie Ten Boon once famously said "There is no pit so deep, that God's love is not deeper still." She knew what a pit was.
All things are recoverable from. Everything has a way back. God is involved in the serious business of recovery every second of every day. Often with the same people and the same recurring fault lines. Even for those who try so hard to be good that it leaves them all churned up inside sometimes. He is constant. He is an inveterate void filler. He is world champion broken people scooper-upper. The lost and the lonely are his people baby! I suppose you have to be like Bethany and trust the healer enough to let him in and to give it over.